…on my favorite appetizers…
…and of course, their delicious burgers.
I only ate a turkey patty wrapped in lettuce, with a side of steamed veggies. I received a comment on Instagram that this looked like “an eating issue.”
As much as I hate to admit it – even though I’m not trying to lose weight – I’m on a diet. I did order off the “Skinny” menu and it made me cringe. For the last 6 years I’ve explained “The Actor’s Diet is actually NOT a diet” and that’s just not true right now, nor will it be until I’m done shooting this secret project in June.
I’m realizing I can diet and not be anorexic, the same way I can consume thousands of calories at a food event and not be bingeing. Also, I DO have an eating issue – I always will. I’m just thankful my eating issues are not how I identify myself anymore, that they don’t take over my life, nor ruin an evening out with friends. I think back to those years of struggling, obsessing, freaking out, and none of that’s happening now. I’m just eating the way I need to for my job. I trust myself not to abuse myself – because I know that if my eating issue really escalated back into an EATING ISSUE I wouldn’t need someone else telling me that it was. I’d definitely know.
Thick Dumpling Skin is being honored this weekend at Kearny Street Workshop’s Celebrate Your Body Event; I recorded this video for them.
For me, “Celebrating Your Body” doesn’t mean rah rah rah everything is peaches and cream no matter what so lets eat those peaches and cream it means acknowledging the struggles, accepting them, choosing to work through it (or not), and moving on to what’s actually important – living my life.