Project by Project’s Plate by Plate 2016
In 2012, I was supposed to emcee Project by Project’s Plate by Plate. I cancelled when my father went into the hospital, and came home to NJ for two weeks that would forever change my life. Today is the fourth anniversary of his death. Every year that I return to that annual food event, it’s an opportunity to think about him, and reflect on how much changes, or stays the same.
I had just come straight from my panel at BlogHer and was feeling a bit frazzled. So I really took the time to stop, breathe, appreciate and enjoy where I was. What are the dishes and who makes them? To be honest, I have no clue. And I am too busy talking to people (that’s the talented Amy Hill, above).
I did make a little vlog capturing the event (at the bottom of this post). I probably ate a bite of only 1/3 of the dishes there. Unheard of in the past (I would’ve left with my belly ready to burst) but these days, food is more and more my job and less and less what I pay attention to off-duty.
I’ve been in NJ with my mom the last few days. Being around random spreads of Chinese/American food has me thinking of where I am from. It has me thinking a lot about who I am becoming, what I’m doing. Where I want to focus. Sometimes I feel like there is just too much going on – I want to share so much and at the same time I want to shut up. There are thunderstorms and lightning outside. Then the sun comes out, and sets gorgeously. We don’t get much of that in Los Angeles; I am reminded of how all things come/go/pass so quickly. Life changes like the weather. I mean, I still miss my Dad a lot, but it doesn’t feel like it did before, drenching in the sorrow. My relationship to grief, much like my relationship to food, is evolving.
P.S. You may notice that I’m still wearing that same dress I wore at the Facebook NYC Office. I tell you, it’s all because I love it!
Video: Holy Smokes Popcorn at Plate by Plate 2016